Monday, July 13, 2009 ♥
Good Morning peeps!!
first and formost,today's my Economic exams!!
im so so nervous about this, cos i dun know y??haha.
my weekends SUCKS!glued at home for sat & sundae.
no life,no mood,no appetite,no happines,no xcitement
for that two BOring days!wat i did was to sit at home
doin house chores 360Degree!dreaming while watching tv,
forcing myself to have a nap and finding myself nutink to
do in the end.i just cant take it larr...im 19?bt i still feels that
im being treated like 14?i tink worst than that!!
i need air to breathe...i need some enjoy pills to make myself
happy..i dun wan to waste my 'expiring' teenage life doin nutink
at home like 'cinderella'.the fact is im not!
like other girls,they can at LEAST looking forward for friday or saturday
to come.cos they know that they're gonna have fun wit frens and their
love ones..BUT me???
im diff.
since young i have this tendency to have this knida of fear to ask
permission from my parents to go out.know y?
cos my answer for having fun outside with frens and
love ones, MAJORITY are denied!!
so,the conclusion for me is to lie..
lie and lie and lie and lie and lie till im tired and fedUP about it.
feeling like throwing up when i started to think a 'new' idea to come
up with.
my intention here is not to complain or whatsnot.
i need to clear off this shit feelings, grudges in my heart that have
stayed within me for SOOO LOONG!
its not good for the health either.i may end up having self-depression!!!
still, by doin this the pain i felt will stay forever.it has been a routine for me
to develop this kind of 'sad' feelings every single day of my life.
im a gd daughter,so i wont defiant or do sometink stupid like
running out from home etc...
This is the best way for me to keep it straight down to the bottom of
my heart.no one will ever understand how i feels.not a single soul..
i just pray to god for my well being and happines.HE is the only KEY that can
open and brighten up my heart that is now in total darkness..
hope for my best in exams later on.=)
tkcr everione!
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